syg.. dinda malu dgn kanda

syg... dinda maluw sgt dgn kanda actually, dinda sakit, kanda still dgn dinda, dinda lemah, kanda still teman dinda.. dinda maluw sgt... kdg2 dinda jadi dingin dgn kanda bukan sbb dinda xsyg kanda, x.. tp sbb dinda terlalu sygkan kanda, dinda x snggup biarkan kanda tanggung beban nie. kanda seorang laki yg sgt baik, tp knapa kanda dpt isteri mcm nie, dinda bole janjikan kesetiaan, tp kebahagiaan yg selamanya? dinda susah nk janjikan tue sbb keadaan dinda, maafkan dinda sbb dh byk kali sakitkan ati kanda, buat kanda marah n susah hati, maafkan dinda atas bebanan yang kanda tanggung selama ini. tp tanpa kanda d sisi dinda selama dinda sakit, susah nie, mungkin family dinda dh kehilangan dinda...

love

my dear...

my dear.. today's is 18 of january. and at about 3 month and few days, that we've know each other, but siyesy.. i feel like its a very long time that i know you. yes, we have a very strange love story chronolgy. but i have to confess that you are the kind of guy that i've been looking for all this life. i have met so many guys before, but of course they seems to be different like you. yes, to be truth. i am so into you right now. my love, my heart, my everything is just for you and i dont feel regret of having that kind of feelings towards you. however.. i feel regret of myself.

my dear...
i am really sorry for everything. you came to me when i was sick, we build our love nest when i am still sick, we have a date when i am still sick, part of our moment is just a miserable situation. most of the time i mean. but you still standing here beside me and do anything just to make sure i could be fine. you know how much i appreciate that??? you still want me to be your wife even you know everything about my weakness. oh my....

i am barely feeling so weak when i think about you... how dissapointed am i because of myself. i tried to get rod of it but sometimes i cannot stand it. i feel upset when i see you playing and kiss your beloved niece.. putri.. i feel guilty when you talk and talk about our future, i feel lost when you said you will love me till the end of your life. syg.. i am scared.. terribly scared and worry about everything, i always wanted to make you feel the happiness of having our own happy family. i really wish i could give you that, but i am afraid i cannot do so... oh my.....
i really love you, but...